Most Powerful Weapon

"The most powerful weapon on earth is a human soul on fire."

As I was scrolling down to my Tumblr dashboard the said quote above caught my attention. Then I remember this blog that I am to make. It fitted Aeneas' shoes for he never stopped in what he is doing just to reach success. He had encountered so many things that almost brought him down but nothing on those things had stopped him. This shows how dedication can bring you to whatever your goal is. There may be times when giving up is his only choice but he never did. Maybe, he believes that aside from being dedicated you have to be patient.
One lesson from this epic story is to be patient in everything that you do. Why? Because as long as you believe in something, it will happen.

Fall of Troy

The fall of Troy had caused so much deaths and of course unhappy feelings for the Trojans. I may not be one of them but the fall of their home isn't easy enough to be handled. Like, where are they to stay? Yes, I did feel sympathy for them. I somehow compared myself to them, I have a home. It may not be perfect but I am happy, and of course lucky. Likewise, I felt a little mad with the Greeks for they're deeds caused this unfortunate thing. They did not eve think of the result it may bring to many people. However, it still makes me think that both group are the cause of the suffering.

A Talk for a Cause

"When the solution is simple, God is answering." -Albert Einstein

Albert Einstein is known for being one of the greatest scientist in the world. He is unlikely of those other scientists who compared the Divine to Science. I somehow envy those who had the opportunity to have a small talk with him.
"Hey." I felt a hand on my shoulder and was shocked to see that it was him, Einstein. He asked me to come over here at 3 o'clock but it's 3:30 PM already, and I thought he won't come. It was nice to see him. "Sorry for making you wait." he then added.
"No" I said with my hands shaking, "...it's okay. I'm glad we had this gathering because I really wanted to ask some questions to you."
"Oh." silence was created until I decided to ask him a question.
"Uhm, Sir, what kind of talent do you think you have?"
"I have no special talent. I'm just passionately curious." he answered.
"So, I guess you have a wide imagination."
"Of course." then he smiled, "Logic will take you from A to B. Imagination will take you everywhere."
"But we all know that everything has a limit." I said.
"Yes, BUT..." I looked at him, "I am enough of an artist to draw freely upon my imagination. Imagination is more important than knowledge. Knowledge is limited. Imagination encircles the world."
"Oh. Wow." I ran out of words but something suddenly popped into my mind. "Uhm, Sir, have you ever failed and asked for someone's help?"
"Well, of course, many times, but..." I just looked at him waiting for him to continue, "I am thankful to all those who said 'NO', because of them, I did it myself."
Slowly he fades, it's time for him to leave. Before he left, he said words of wisdom, "Never give up on what you really want to do. The person with big dreams is more powerful than one with all the facts." that made me smile until we both bid goodbye. I am about to leave the place when I remembered seeing him playing with the tissue while holding a pen. I looked at it and saw a note that says, "The only reason for time is so that everything doesn't happen at once."
I was thinking of reasons why he had written that, until I remembered how impatient I am.

BLOG 3.2

Alone in the park, I sat on a vacant wooden bench there. Just some seconds after I've positioned myself on the bench in my most comfortable place, a man passed by the path in my front. I followed him through my eyes until I saw him approached a kid who is sketching hearts on his paper with his puppy next to him. Not being so far, I heard some part of their conversation.
"Hey kid, what is love?" the man asked.
Simply, the boy answered him that it is when a puppy licks your face. The man laughed, but the boy then added, "...even after you left him alone all day."
The man formed a smile that-I think-expresses gladness to what a simple young boy answered to his wide ranged question.

Dear SOMEONE Whose Name is Something I Shall Keep

Dear someone whose name is something I shall keep,

No reason why I'm writing this for you whom I didn't expect.

I like you a real lot, and I wish you could notice that,

Although, I guess my feeling is like a thing you would forgot.

Why'd you have to be so good at it?

Hurting me without awareness of even a bit.

Maybe I've been so stupid to write you in my heart,

And so much more that it permanently took part.

Am I so used to this kind of pain I feel?

The pain which reasoned for me to slowly be killed.

It's always about me, dreaming of things that will never will,

Somehow, it's annoying but I can't help, feelings almost spilled.

Things have turned to be so strange,

The guild we had before suddenly changed.

The one person whom I was previously close to

Had altered, and the real him was so far of my view.

People have said that love is a ruthless game,

But you'll never know 'til you put yourself in its frame.

So, unintensionally my heart gave it a try,

Now, with none of the fortune in this world, I cry.

I've read that hoping is one best thing in this place of ours,

And that we may wish from those countless stars,

But a question mark always has to fill my mind up,

"Will my love ever come to him and give his a heart a slap?"

I know never a promise was created or any kind,

But I have this one thing inside my mind,

Not the spot of yours will be invaded by anyone,

Though, you leave and somebody else lands.

What I want may not be what is yours,

But I wish my presence won't ever be ignored,

This may be too much of my stupidity,

But, "I hope sometimes you wonder about me."

Sincerely, someone who cares a lot;

Who wishes you'll notice that,

And one day you'll turn your back to her,

But still she know that for you, her always means never.

101 - I like you

Hey, I am sorry

For being so stupid and attached to you,

For waking up in my own little fantasy

And trying to mess up the reality you do.

I know this isn't love that's around,

But every time you form a smile,

There are sparks that cover the whole town

And my world stops for awhile.

I am very much aware

That you never did care,

Or maybe you do,

Well, I wish, and hope too.

It would be nice to have someone

Who would actually be there,

But it would be so much better

To have you than anyone else.

If I could have a wish right now,

I wish you would sneak up behind me,

Whisper in my ear

And tell the things I've been dying to hear.

I want you to go away,

Yet, I want you to stay,

There's so much to hate about you,

But my heart just keeps on wanting you.

I know we haven't spoken for a while,

And I'm trying to be okay with that,

Well, I can say no buts.

I'm never the one you want to walk on the aisle.

I know it's no one's but my fault

If in this world I get hurt,

But what else can I do?

Liking you deepens in every move.

Forever

[Leigh narrating]

It has been three months since I talked to the doctor and been told a heinous news. Well, the news was as simple as bidding adieu to everyone in just three months. This week, may be my last and it was so crass of me that I never told my boyfriend, oh let me scratch that, my fiance. Last month, he asked me to marry him, I said yes, but I think I'm changing my mind. I think I should connive towards him, I should be cold, or maybe not. I dialed his phone number, and he answered it in just two rings.

"Can we talk?" I know how I sounded, it's somehow pathetic in my part.

"What for?" I can feel how worried he is. We haven't talked for a week, because of such things, like their business, I miss him so much. "By the way, I miss you." I felt happy hearing those words, yet, guilt is haunting me.

I want to tell him that I miss him too, but I didn't. Instead, "Meet me now in the cafe near your place."

"Okay." I hung up the phone before he could say more. I know how gauche I've been towards him, but I just don't know how to act.

In less than five minutes, he arrived. His obeisance to me made me feel so important while I act like he's nothing to me. A bit of silence formed between us.

"I want to tell you something. / So, are we gonna talk about our marriage?" we said in chorus, then he made a patois telling me go ahead, so I did.

"Uhmm, yeah. We're gonna talk about it. I just want to..." how the hell am I going to tell him?

"W-What?" he started breaking his voice.

"Cancel it, let's just cancel it. I feel like I don't love you anymore." I lied, my words are too bogus. I lied to myself and to the person I love, but I made my voice as affable as I can. I left without any word, but before that I forced a smile to allay.

'Brevin, I love you. I am sorry that I lied. I just don't you to marry a dying person. I know you'll find someone better than me, a healthier person whom you'll grow old with. Sorry, for breaking my promise that we'll be forever, I just can't stand to see you say "I do." to someone who won't be at your side forever.' I said to myself. Those words were just for him, but I am just too weak not to tell him honestly. I know he'll understand, soon.

[Brevin narrating]

"You may now kiss the bride." people clapped their hands after the priest announced those words. It's nice to see a wedding ceremony, I enthused for my cousin's destiny. It's something you'd be proud of.

A year had passed since she left. I know there are to many girl in this world but what about them? I don't love them, like either. They just can't get my attention as much as she does. I still love her. Leigh will always be in my heart, forever.

After my cousin's wedding with Rhian, they asked me to attend the reception, but I insisted not to. I'll visit her.

I went to that place where she stays, she's silent, again. I remembered that day. That same day when she asked me to cancel our wedding.

Late at night that day, her mom called me, I was supposed to refuse the call since I'm not in the mood to talk to anyone. I've been hurt so much, still I answered it. I can feel that it's really important.

"Hello?"

"Vin!" yeah, that's how people call me, it's only Leigh who completes it. "Leigh's in the hospit--." I hung up the phone, I know what's next. I did everything to thwart my tears to fall. Leigh is my weakness, I just love her that much. Being into rush, I forgot to ask where hospital, so I went to the one nearest to their house. She was brought there, I made sure after I left the nurse station. I went straight to where she was brought. There, my tears traced my cheeks, I was so stupid. I saw her parents and her dad approached me. He gave me a letter.

"The doctor hasn't went out yet. Let's just pray for her safety. We found out awhile ago that she doesn't drink her medicine anymore. Maybe, she thinks it's nonsense because she is going to die no matter what. Be strong for her." he wheedled for me to compose myself as he patted my shoulder.

'Brevin. First of all, I love you, I know that you know. I'm so stupid to lie on you. Funny because you believed, or maybe not. So yeah, I'm sick. I wish you knew how sorry I am for keeping this. Haha. You know why I changed my mind about marrying you? Simply because I love you so much. I don't want you to marry me, because I know that soon enough, I'll be leaving. I don't know when, it could be today, so, I wrote this already. Maybe, now that you're reading this, I'm gone. I wish all the best things for you. I wish you'll always be happy even if I'm not with you anymore. Sorry for the promise I broke. I hope you'll understand all of this. I really really love you. Please swear that you'll be happy for me. Someday, you'll be given condign love. It may not come from me, but I know it'll be perfect for you. Again, I love you, forever.'

As soon as I finished reading her letter, the doctor went out.

"Sorry." that one word meant a lot. I cried. Without any word, I sashayed into the room. I hugged her for the last time, though, I know I'll get no response.

A year had passed yet it's still painful remembering that day. I wish she's happy wherever she is, because it is her smile, and only hers, that completes me. More years will pass but I know, no one will ever be like her, and there will be no other girl for me. I love her, forever.